“Being beautifully broken is a lifestyle that says yes, always, to the things of Christ in and for my life. It is a moment by moment awareness of His goodness and presence always being with me. As a beautifully broken woman before Jesus Christ, I can lay out the pieces of my life and watch as He uses them for His glory. I am free to be the woman He has created me to be in the light of His love. There is nothing that can separate me from His love, not even my brokenness. He has used it to bring me into a deeper, more intimate relationship with Him. My brokenness does not define my life, my identity is firmly grounded in Christ, but He has used it to bring beauty from the ashes of brokenness.”— Erin Pluene
“ I vividly remember the moment. It is seared into my heart. The crushing, heartbreaking realization that my marriage wasn’t “perfect”. The emotional pain cut so deep, it felt as if something physically was happening to my body. I could no longer pretend I had everything under control. In that painfully defining moment, I cried out to the Lord. Out loud. With my voice. The tormenting thoughts of the enemy were no longer in my head, but I used my voice to talk to my Savior. There I was a grown woman, laying on a cold bathroom floor completely heartbroken and talking out loud to Jesus for the first time. Sure I had prayed to Him in my head, but I had never verbalized my feelings to Him. Years of stuffed down, raw emotions all came rushing out. I told Him my deepest hurts and most protected feelings. You know those feelings of pain, rejection, embarrassment? Those words you would never ever say out loud…it’s raw and unfiltered. It’s beautiful pain. Because you know what….God can handle it. He patiently waited on me to fall at his feet with all of my hurt and disappointment. He burst into the moment and overwhelmed my broken heart with His love. I literally felt heaviness lift. I could breath. I could take a deep breath, y’all. I smiled and even laughed because I knew from that moment forward my life would be “perfectly” in His hands. It’s truly an unexplainable peace and joy that only comes from the Lord. My circumstances didn’t change, but I had been given a new heart and mind. God had given us strength and a heavenly perspective to endure the most painful season of our lives. It was an unexplainable joy and contentment regardless of my situation. It’s been 3 1/2 years since that moment on the bathroom floor. Since then God has passionately pursued my husband and me. The Lord gave us a marriage better than we could ever dream. Being Byoutifully Broken means I finally have the confidence to share my story unashamed and without the mask of perfection. And this my precious friends, is only because of Jesus.”— Nikki Barrios
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