Here is a transparent moment… I have the ability to be lazy. There I said it. And it’s true. My love for relaxation can turn into laziness at the drop of a dime. Honestly, I had to learn how to sit and be still a long time ago because of the nature of my job. It took a lot out of me and I had to learn how to relax for my own well being and mental health. This new skill, as I like to call it, just fed the part of myself that can be lazy.
I’ve been listening to “Stand Up” from the Harriet movie on repeat lately. The more I listen, the more the sting of the lyrics get to me. Right now we are experiencing societal unrest. There is a lot of pain and turmoil that comes when witnessing heinous acts.
As I sit here with my oldest, I was reading a post about how intentional we should be with this extra time that we have. There is a lot to say about this corona virus. People are hurting financially, children and families are lacking basic needs, parents are frustrated that they have to actually take care of their children while balancing work from home, and some others are just frustrated that they have to take care of their children. There is a lot of uncertainty. There is a fear of the unknown and a valid concern of what the future holds. There are a lot of challenges that people are experiencing in general.
He doesn’t say no to keep good things from us. He’s our Father and desires good things for his children. His “no” is protection, grace, mercy, and love. It’s kind, gentle, and perfect. His “no” comes with A LOT of YES. And I believe our response to the “no” is what determines if we are ready for more.
It’s been a long time since I’ve written something other than a song. I wanted to return sooner but I’m glad I didn’t.
What God shared with me was that so often we, as His children, kick and scream when He tells us to move or shifts us towards something else that we can’t quite see right away. In the discomfort of leaving our present comfort, we become defiant or disobedient and do things our way (because we think we know it all) and we suffer the consequences.